unspoken

There goes my emotion, let out by my spoken words
I watch it carry into the air and helplessly stare as it as reaches you
My words drift into your ear like a sound in the wind
and so I wait, watching your every move
your face expression changes and I prepare myself for any and every possible outcome
eyes widening, as I clench my fists with deep anticipation
until I'm finally able to see your words and thoughts painted on your face
they say actions speak louder than words
but these words I speak, are the greatest actions I've ever made
I entrusted these words to carry my emotions
and they have done so well
her mouth opens and I freeze
waiting for any kind of answer
but these words I speak fall on deaf ears
for these words I entrusted
were twisted with lies as they spewed out
and my honest emotion came out as a lie from the heart
for what I truly wished to say, was never heard
and she stared at me calmly
asking if I'm okay
for what i thought was spoken were just in my mind
and what I truly did ask for, was only the time.

Imma Be

I want to be rich beyond my wildest dreams.
I want the last thing I ever argue about with her to be about money.
I want to give her a bank account filled with so many zeros, that all she ever needs to worry about, is four little numbers.
I want to take her across the world, and show her things she never knew existed.
I want to learn Korean, and explain my life that she tried so hard to understand.
I want to go on TV, so that everyone will know how much I love her.
I want to join the military, so she can finally brag about how proud she is to all her friends.
I want to learn about her life and her story before I was born.
I want to donate to charity in her name, so she can be in the hearts of thousands.
I want a house no bigger than our own, so that she knows I was not corrupted by money.
I want to do all this before the age of 35.
Because the faster I get there, the longer I can show her.