Life is funny how it can change so abruptly. Or at least you may think it happened so fast. But in reality we don't see all the little gears working to acquire this sudden change. We can only see things from our point of view and therefore aren't able to fully comprehend how many small changes are needed to create this catalyst. Large changes such as death, career, and romance can happen in the blink of an eye. Your eye, however can only see what you personally go through. Its when you start to pay attention to everything around you that you soon come to realize that this is all a chain event in our lives. We'll hear small changes from other people and when paying close enough attention, you'll realize it is all connected. I believe in my heart for this to be true, however I cannot shake this fear that always arises during times of importance. Doubt slowly builds, accruing into my heart until it reaches my mind. Slowly doubting my abilities and my skills. Eventually leaving me in a state of vulnerable weakness. It allows fear to take over and soon I drown in a thought of unfortunate possibilities. I know I must be strong. I must be confident and I know God is by my side to guide me. To help me know that I'm not alone. God gave me this opportunity and I will do my best to prove that I am right for this job.
God gave me this opportunity because he knows I am capable. He is giving me a chance to show the world what I can do. The chance that I always wanted. He gave it to me. And now I will show this world how great I can be, one blog at a time.
God gives us all opportunities and chances. We should be grateful and act accordingly. We should do the best that we can. To remind ourselves that he gave us this chance because we asked for it. Because we feel in our heart that we deserve it. I deserve it.
It's his gift and we must not take it for granted. We must not spoil the gift with fear and insecurity. We must not ruin what he has provided us with doubt. We shall take it proudly and work hard. Because God does not put obstacles in our paths unless we knows that we can overcome them. And we will.
Thank you.
The Night Before
Recently I was scheduled to interview for an accountant position. However due to some unknown power in the universe, my interview turned into one for a blogging position. A blogger for an online website to attract traffic and viewers, something I've been desiring over for quite some time. I would envision myself working a job such as this in the past and now that I have it, I'm worried. This is the night before my first day at work. I've spent most, if not all, of my time over the weekend preparing for tomorrow. I've been casually researching and mapping out in my head how to write effectively tomorrow. However this little practice I played out in my head lead to unfortunate results. I wasn't able to create any writing in my head, let alone a single starting sentence. This caused a state of panic and gradually made my job to appear more and more difficult. I hope when I come back to write about my first day I won't be disappointed with myself. I pray that I'll be able to write proudly and confidently tomorrow and that this fear I have in my head was just my own insecurity taking over. Dear God give me the strength to be strong so that I may overcome my fear and write with passion and creativity. To show this world what I am capable of. I will not falter.
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